Well, if wanted to make a few fresh blogs lately but im finding it tough to think of anything to say, after all, I am really not doing anything lately, just job hunting and playing games. So, the main reason for this blog, and I know this is kinda weird, but I was wondering if there was anything you guys wanted me to blog about? Just any ideas? I think it might be an idea just for something out of the old routine and going by what you wanted to see.

Like I said, I was struggling for things to say, so i'll just give you an update - I've got a few parties coming up... A few friends turning 18 so i'll be out drinking again... Then there's the Prom on thursday for leaving College.

In other news - I've taken quite an obsession to two people lately. One, a Welsh-born actor (yay) Christian Bale. I love his movies and his ability to become each character... Im looking forward to watching American Psycho and Equilibrium sometime, i really enjoyed other movies like Batman Begins, 3:10 to Yuma, The Prestige, The Machinist and others. Christian Bale, the legend... I salute you!

The other person who I have grown especially fond of, is Billie Piper. She hit the music scene at the age of 15 with 3 no.1 hit singles and released two albums. She later went on to acting where she is probably most notable for playing Rose Tyler in the new series of Doctor Who. And perhaps more recently, the star of Secret Diary of a Call Girl (I saw the first episode and really need to see the rest). So, I've been listening to her old music which is really fun, it's very pop-esque but it's cheery and always got for those on a down day. Then, I started watching Doctor Who and I think it's safe to say I have a schoolboy crush. Still... She's only 26, I'm 18.... what are my chances?

Well, a few more days have passed since I promised you, my friends, a greater activity on my part in blogging and just being around the site. So, I was thinking what to say today and thought since my previous blog was announcing my return and giving my hopes for the future, I figured it might be worthwhile in taking a look at the past. The recent past, that is.

So, what has been occuring recently in the life of Steve Le Beave? Let's take a look...

Obviously leaving school and the A Level exams.
My PC's graphics card overloaded and died preventing my PC from working for a good week or two.
The house is being decorated .
Myself and a best bud decided to get good jobs and rent a place together.
Since exams ended, played alot more games e.g:
FIFA up to 89%.
Guitar Hero - now playing on Medium difficulty, averaging 4 or 5 stars, will never play Hard though.
CoD - Got to rank 51 Online, but have been getting urges to play Campaign again.
Applied for a few jobs, however no repsonses as of yet.
Been going Music Mad, listening to my iPod & iTunes almost every hour of the day.
Got a suit for my Prom.

Yeah, all in all, things are going quite well lately. Sure every now and then there's a speedbump in the road whether thats lack of cash preventing me going out, or any other reason, ultimately, I'm thinking of a quote from a movie called Harold & Kumar Go Get The Munchies (or Go To Whitecastle - for my transatlantic cousins in the USA ):

"The Universe tends to unfold as it should".

Looking at things with a sort of happy-go-lucky attitude in recent times seems to be working well for me so i suggest you try it!

Thanks for reading guys and gals!

Hey!

It's been a good month or so now but I am back. I spent some time away trying to find what to do with my life etc as I leave College. Well, as you know I had my A Level exams, which i finished my last one about an hour ago and it went brilliantly so I have ended them on a high note Overall they went quite well and I took your advice to gear my butt in gear to revise too. Thanks! Out of all of them, there was only one exam which was a abit 'meh', but i suppose that is bound to happen.

Anyway, now I am free of Education, and out into the wild. So, I now plan on getting a job, a flat with a friend and enjoy my remaining years of youth. My fitness plan went kaput as the exams approached but now I plan on getting back on track with that... Get that six-pack we all love so much Anyway, I was never happy in School and College, so now I am 'turning over a new leaf', and going to break free of the depression and boredom and malarky which came with that, and just enjoy myself.

I hope to get back into my blogging and to pay greater interest into yours too.

Thanks guys, it's good to be back

Friday (tommorrow) is my last ever schoolday... At 16 i decided to stay on to Sixth-Form (college) to study for two more years and get some A Level Qualifications. Wow, that was two years ago now huh. Well time has flown by, and it's my last day tommorrow, but while people are calling it the end of an era and getting all upset and emotional, im looking to be the only person who is optimistic (for possibly the first time ever). I hated every last minute of school and education. The endless hours of homework, essays, coursework, relentless teachers, and people who call you their 'friends' yet stab you in the back at the drop of a hat. It all ends tommorrow. Sure, you are probably reading this thinking i sounds like i am going in with a machine gun and wasting everyone, I probably am like that as I have just hit the last mission on GTA, but lets stick to the point.

I've never been so terrified in all my life.. Nothing i am pressured to go to.. After pretty much being forced to attend for 13 or 14 years... I am free I guess. But it's scary... I've mentioned before people are afraid of spiders and snakes and heights.. My only fear is not knowing what the future holds... And in this situation i've never been so excited yet terrified at the same time. Sure, it all ends tommorrow, but i will have to actually sit my exams in the next few weeks, and what then? Full time job? Car? House? Family? The whole life shaboodle? Hopefully. Well i'm probably not making too much sense right now and i'm sure this is the worst presented blog i've ever made.

Anyway, i just thought it was worth blogging about. Thoughts and feelings and advice appreciated...

I know almost everyone has already started their revision, but I just can't or maybe more accurately.. wont. I don't know why, but i've never been good at getting my brain in the right mind-set to do it, and i know people say these are the most important exams of my life but that just makes me want to put it off more (dont ask why - I don't know). So, any advice you can give me to help get my butt in gear?

In other news - I am really getting into GTA IV now and am probably nearing the end.... I've taken my time with it as I don't need to worry about 360 acheivements as I'm playing PS3. A great game

If you want to say or ask anything then feel free to comment...

Since my Monthly Blog went a tad pear-shaped, i think my eventful week shall have to substitute for that. So, let me briefly sum-up what went down this week. Then if you have the time, i wil go into them in more detail further on.

• I had a Welsh A Level Speaking Exam. It went well
• GTA - Played some missions and now im stuck on two very similar ones.
• Got back on the old FIFA... Feeding my Challenges addiction again
• Did a Camera Challenge (explained further on), and it was a great bonding and fun day (probably one of the best days of my life).
• Went to see Cardiff City FC play Barnsley in the final match of the season (final league match at least).
• Discovered the most amazing song ever, sure, it's cheesy but if you're like me then its such a good Theme Song for my life.
• Dilemna: Two parties, one night.
• Last night - Sixth Form Party Finale: The end of an era. Got drunk and realised some things.
• Today.. ill
• Realisations and My Future

Exam

Well, as you know i am extremely passionate about my country and any of you who actually know the Welsh language will know how beautiful it can sound and that's why we have some of history's most beautiful literature. So, I decided to take Welsh as an A Level (and im first language English so it doesnt really come naturally). Anyway, we (myself and buddy Mike) had to speak with an examiner for 45 mins on Theatre, Film, TV, Radio, Newspaper, Magazines, the play Siawn by Saunders Lewis and answer a Synoptic question (could be anything so we couldnt prepare for it). Anyway, i must say the examiner lady was a lovely lady and made us very comfortable. It went well and the Synoptic turned out to be on Love & Marriage - which i was quite comfortable talking about, I even managed to crack off a little joke too

GTA

Well i've played through a little bit and I don't like rushing nor playing it too much because i find failing the missions drives me mad. So, now i'm stuck on The Snow Storm and Final Interview. Both are very similar and frustrating. So, maybe i'll give them a go later... It makes the missions fifty times harder when it's nighttime too because i can't see anything!

FIFA

Had a friend around who got me playing this again. I am at about 83% complete... Even though the real aim for these games is fun... I just figured 'why not?'. So i've gone back to do the Challenges which almost gave me a heart attack last time... ish me luck!

Camera Challenge

Right, the objective is to be in a group of 5 people and you are given a set of pictures that have to be taken around the City. There's about 25 pictures to take each with a different challenge, for example: 'Pretend to be an aeroplane outside Top Gun Fish Shop', 'Have a team member jump a river', have a team member get a bucket of water poured all over them', 'have a group photo on a see-saw', 'get a piggyback from a stranger' etc. So we did this on Monday from about 10am to 5pm and it was amazing. My group consisted of myself, best mates Mike and Daz, and awesome girls Rach n Elle. It truly was one of the best days of my life. So much fun, just joking around and spending time with some of my fave peeps. When we got the pics developed and rushed to Megabowl to see if we had won (there were about 5 other teams competing), it went down to a tie breaker worth 20 points. The tie-breaker was this - 3 team members eat an entire pack of the worlds spiciest chillis, first team to do so, wins. However, as only myself and Mike were willing to take on for the team, it was 3-on-2. Inevitably we lost my one chilli. It took me about an hour for the pain to go away and 8 bottles of Fruit Shoot and a heck lotta water. I would put pics up of the actual Camera Challenge, but my friends might not appreciate it.

Cardiff Match vs Barnsley

It was a good match which we comfortably won 3-0 i think. A good way to end the season.. Now we set our sights on Wembley.

Song

I was bored and whilst eating a pizza 3 days ago I asked my sister if she happened to have any DVD's i hadn't watched. So, i ended up watching John Tucker Must Die. It was cheesy and i won't go into detail but overall i gave it 3./5 But there was one moment in the movie where John kisses the main girl in the film and the sprinklers in her garden come on and they get wet and basically she runs indoors and he stands there smiling as the moment was interupted. A song came on. It was Just the Girl by The Click Five.

Dilemna

Like i said, two parties in one night. I'm torn and don't know what to do... Any thoughts?

The end of an era

Last night was the Final Sixth-Form (College) party we will have as Students at the school i go to. I don't usually go too often but figured 'why not, i'm 18 and can legally drink, and after all, its the end of an era'. So I went and realised I had not eaten i well over 24 hours so I rushed to Sainsbury's to buy a sandwhich and minutes later I started drinking. After the first 45 mins of the party i had only had about 4 drinks and was already feeling the effects of having not properly digested my food. I kept on drinking as the night went on and even bought a drink for someone i kinda like Although she dismissed it really, well, said thanks but really thought nothing of it if you know what i mean. I got pretty bad by the end of the night and have been finding pictures on Facebook and thinking 'when the heck ws that!?'. I remember getting the DJ to play Mr. Brightside by The Killers which was awesome. And also went crazy with my friend screaming 'que sera sera'. Oh and even made a Lil Jon shoutfest catch on as we were being kicked out at about 1.30am, we all went screaming 'WHAT!? YEAH! OKAY!'. Was quality. I saw my best friend kiss the girl he has been after for a while. and I enjoyed a good 40 crawl back to my house

Sick Day

But today it all caught up with me. Sleepless nights, lots of alcohol, no food in my system. All caught up with me and i have been 'ill' all morning. I managed to make it to College for one lesson, but ran home because i could feel it coming if you know what i mean.

Realisations & The Future

Yes, once again my mind is running rampant. So many thoughts flying through and I really don't know where to begin. But I had a few ideas before starting this Blog and this was to be the main bulk of it, but as I left it for last I have now forgotten what i was going to say. But i've just been having thoughts about my future... We leave College in less than a month. I'm not going to Uni so i suppose a Job will have to be looked for. Thinking about getting a Car and looking into all that. Thinking about friends, family and relationships. Thinking about my money or the lack thereof. Thinking about happiness and my future. I made a Video on my Playstation Eye a few weeks back when i was feeling a bit depressed and named it 'My Depression Confession' and said that the only thing I am afraid of in this life, is not knowing what the future holds. Or how i can shape my own destiny. If there is such a thing.

So, I just want to thank you for reading this and i greatly appreciate any comments and/or advice you may have for me. Thanks!