"Bring chaos to paradise and let it break the face of beauty." -envomtonix

• 9Oct 08

  I Fought the Law...

  Whoever said it, whoever made it, whoever told me that it was whoever...but whoever said, "If you want something, chances are you'll never get it." Is it Murphy's Law that is associated with? The law that says, If I eat healthy I'll get fat or some opposite logic law like that?

  Well, with regards of my previous blog about Cold Emotion, it would seem that it would be accurate to say, I feel like it's Murphy's Law or Whosoever Law, that makes things the way that they are. And Ironically, Murphy's Law has been stated twice at work over the past two days, by two different people. Sounds like a coincidence I would be so more than willing to state this fact.

  But the good old Murphy's Law or whatever just states bland facts about life. If you build it, WILL THEY COME? Sorry Costner, there ain't no baseball with this field of dreams, this is a plain of reality and the ridiculous facts that sometimes trying too hard, is too hard to appreciate the fact. Whether you work at something so hard that it doesn't matter anymore. (cooking something so long, you're no longer hungry?) or maybe it's the fact that I've been trying so hard to get something and it just doesn't happen, and when I don't or don't expect it - it sporadically happens. It's the silly things like that, that get me confused but finally getting it makes things more understandable.

  In the previous blog, I would go and say that I had a large amount of affection towards something, perhaps I was so affectionate towards it, that it no longer meant anything to me. I have had this happen in the past, how I would do something here on GS...become so enthralled by it, just to give up a week after I started it. It can be a bit of a disaster when you don't get it and it just takes over your emotion.

  Let's just say that I won't try to think too hard, I'll stay down on level one and work on that than just jumping to level 20 or somewhere deep in thought and suffer mentally. I don't need to push something from nothing to everything, it's not like I'm so bored that I feel I can do everything. I'll keep things alive with my union, yes...MY UNION, and I will keep tabs and promote the growth. Feel free to check out one of my newest topics, Samurai Game. And if you're reading this, I had some sushi tonight at some Japanese Hibachi Grill. Salmon sushi, Onagi Sushi, and some Squid sushi...the kudos go to the salmon one. And yes Sushi is still awesome...just like Nobunaga's Ambition (and amazing difficult)

  • Posted Oct 9, 2008 8:27 pm PT
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• 7Oct 08

  Cold Emotion

  I will try and be brief about this one...most of my others are long and about 3-4 paragraphs but I know the sense of detail you can go into something with a title like the one I gave for this one. I don't mean to speak drab and long, continuous ever so restating the facts, but I have been sitting around here watching and reading internet stuff...also sort of thinking of my life in a way. I know most people can claim they want to be something like a musician or a game developer, be rich or be a man with 4 kids (or 300 kids, Whew). I try to envision my placing, trying to understand something about myself. All I see is everything I ever care about, drastically ending...those that I have yet to happen like someone special I could end up caring about, it turns to blankness...the things that have yet to happen; turn to misery.

  I know I can be dark but I have no idea why things I see only end up in my head as doubt. I doubt myself in so many ways I wish I were like a guy on the street begging for a buck. I am not, instead I walk amongst the people too proud to be hassled by the lower, too rivaled by the people of higher rank, and the people of self-importance, all there is in life is gold and greed.

  I see so much failure around me that I pretty much believe something is going to happen in a bad way. I should have never figured out the reasoning for chaos (plz don't ask)...Anyways, I wish I could figure out why I see things so differently, why I don't get some simple questions, why is life so difficult, and how much brain damage I have had during my high school days?

  They say they never wrote a book about how to play with life like it's another game, but I can say playing it free-hand, does not make sense. I can't even understand why I seem afraid of something so general nowadays. I feel so evasive, I'm just waiting to be cornered until I give up...give in...and eventually get married because I had to. That's how I see romance now, Get em in the corner!!!

  Well at least I could make a joke at the end to make things more bright but I guess I'll have to figure out why I feel so empty and why things feel so weak and why my world just is not spinning as fast as it could

  • Posted Oct 7, 2008 5:52 pm PT
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• 2Oct 08

  Inviting the Masses

  So I'm on a mission to get a crapload of people, to gather around and join in my newly established union, C.A.F.E. Union. I know some people, well actually a lot of people, who do have a 30 union limit they're dealing with so they can feel less-pressured by invite spamming. I know, it does get really annoying when all you see are mario, nintendo, and pokemon union invites coming in your direction and making you, burn some calories wiggling to the delete link.

  So, I know some invites have come, and some have yet to be sent since, sending a invite casually...by no means saying "oh yes, plz do" is just something I can't do to reach out enough to say so. So my actions shall speak louder than words and make a blog for the eyes to see if they're willing. By no means is this a typical game union, it's an Idea and Design Union. A game conversation place to talk either in World of Warcraft battle plans, to the tools to take down a mothership. It's a thoughtful and modest place, something I don't think too much of anyone has reflected upon so I jumped the gun and made one.

  So I'm not saying this is a INVITE BLOG, you read - you join. This is just so those I couldn't reach with an interest of joining it, I might be more productive...and since I'm doing this, you can be the one to look into it and see if another Call of Duty union is worth the admission. And yes I am sorry if so Bloodbath (since the next day you write about invites, after I apparently had you on my list)...well, I guess a union is set by how productive and outspoken you are. I wonder if I can pull something like this off?

  • Posted Oct 2, 2008 2:19 pm PT
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