Court was today. First appearance and charges read into the record. I went, I don't know why really other than I wanted him to know i wasn't cowed by everything he's been doing, that despite his best efforts he hasn't broken me and no matter how much humiliation I have to suffer as a result of some of those charges coming to light I will not back up. Six more charges have been added as a result of my medical records and that is a whole lot of grief for my ex husband. I surprisingly take no happiness from that. I keep thinking if he'd just left my son alone I would have kept his evil little secrets forever. He looked defiant as always, and managed to throw me the finger on the way out of the courthouse. I returned his salute with one of my own. The only good thing that came out of it was hearing those charges read into the public record, I no longer felt bad about telling on him. I felt angry that I kept it buried as long as I did.
I'm lucky. I've stared down the barrel of a shotgun and lived. I've had a fractured skull delivered by someone who was supposed to love me, and lived. I've been beaten to within an inch of my life and lived. I have a life. A good one. I am finally happy, really happy for maybe the first time ever. At least this is what I assume happy feels like. I shielded my son enough so he has no lasting emotional scars. I will wake up for the remainder of my days in my house, in my bed, beside someone who would take a bullet for me, not in a cage. I am very lucky.
Glad things are starting to look up for you. Take care of yourself and your son :). PM me any time you need to vent :).
I am so very happy that things have turned out this positively for you.
having that attitude means you have already won.
and it is a good feeling isn't it to know that there are people who care for you that much.
I will be a little miffed once in a while but I'll never really feel depressed again.
That comes from living on 'borrowed time' and realizing I could very easily not be here and it makes every day feel nice no matter what happens.
politics isn't that big a deal and my favourite team failing to win the Cup - Stanley or Grey isn't that big a deal. Besides how long has it been since we expected the Leafs or the Ti-Cats to do anything xD.